48 hours

MRI tomorrow, results Wednesday. Very anxious, but so excited and relieved to be moving forward. The waiting is torture.

A friend of mine, Cheryl, recently traveled to Eastern Europe and promised to light candles for me in the cathedrals and churches she visited. I have a very close friend, Susan, praying for me on the East Coast. Our nanny and close family friend Araceli has been praying for me with her Aztec group, and friends and family of hers are praying for me in Mexico. Basically, I have people all over the world sending me positive energy, as well as my Dad looking out for me from beyond the grave – and what better month for him to do so than October?!

Meanwhile, as many of you know, I have my big charity Halloween party, Black Cat Bash, coming up on 10/24, so that’s keeping me busy and focused. Equally importantly, I found out about and decided to walk in the American Cancer Society’s Making Strides Breast Cancer Walk on 10/10 – this weekend. I am 79% to my goal of raising $1000, and have had so many friends and family make donations in my support – I can’t believe what generous, thoughtful, and supportive people I am blessed to have in my life. Sadly, not everyone is as lucky as I am, and it’s these women that the ACS helps support. If you have a few extra minutes and a few extra bucks, please consider making a donation – not just to support me, but also to help women all over the country who have been diagnosed with breast cancers far more serious and devastating than mine.

Kate’s Making Strides Page

To those of you who have already donated – thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your support in this fight means the world to me, and I know with you on my side I can’t lose.

Fingers crossed for good news Wednesday.

Nothing of import

Just having a blah day. Have been really┬átired and though it certainly doesn’t seem possible that 8mm of cancerous cells could do that to me physically, perhaps they’re working their exhausting magic on my mind.

T-minus one week until I get the MRI (supposedly with results the following day). I am feeling very restless and bored. I can’t focus well on anything and am trying to keep myself busy with the kids and household management but it’s not going great. I feel stuck in a holding pattern and my brain just keeps going over the same possibilities again and again and it’s not a lot of fun. My sleep has been disrupted and I’m having problems with my knees and back. Funny how much a toll this is taking on me only because I know about it; had it gone undiagnosed, I’d just be going about my merry way.

If you’re a friend of mine and would like to go out to dinner, please get in touch. I’m feeling very much at loose ends and could use something to look forward to. I never thought I was the sort of person who doesn’t like to ask for help (and still don’t think I am, really) but I think I feel like I am imposing on everyone by asking for their time.

I guess that’s it for now. Sorry this is a rather boring post; breast cancer can’t be all glamour all the time I guess!

T-Minus 36ish hours

Thanks to three wonderful friends for individually brightening my day. My spirits weren’t as high today because of course I am just dying for more information, prognosis, treatment information, etc., and I’ll be lucky if I get even some of that on Tuesday. The gray weather didn’t help, and as Tom Petty says, “The waiting is the hardest part.” Really not looking forward to finding ways to pass the time tomorrow, and this is wrecking Gregory’s first day of preschool on Tuesday for me – how am I supposed to focus on my excitement for that with this hanging over my head? Hopefully I can fake it well enough so that he gets to enjoy it as much as I want him to!

Anyhow, thank you all so much for all your kind words and offers of help. So far the only things I need are information and distraction until I can GET the information!

More Tuesday, I hope.